the bane of honor, the death of duty.

[mood | pensive]
[music | Kimi Ga Tame - Suara (Utawarerumono final episode ED)]

"Love is the bane of honor, the death of duty... A craven be as brave as any man, when there is nothing to fear. And we all do our duty, when there is no cost to it. How easy it seems then, to walk the path of honor. Yet soon or late in a man's life comes a day when it is not easy, a day when he must choose."

- Maester Aemon Targaryen, of Castle Black

i just found this quote, from George R.R. Martin's A Game of Thrones, the first book of the epic fantasy A Song of Ice and Fire, really touching. as i'm sure most of you have experienced the very same thing that Maester Aemon had said, i'll leave it up to you, to ponder and reflect on what you must really do -- when such a time comes. because i experienced it, and destroyed my future for the sake of love, a love that was a, as the song goes, "kastilyong buhangin" (sand castle).

now as i go through another relationship that i hope to be something that i would stay with, if not forever, then as long as possible, i ask myself again this question. what should i choose?

would it be the one i love?

or would it be the one i must do?

there are always uncertainties in life, i learned, but some things are more uncertain than others.

but there are also certain choices that you would always take, regardless of being wrong.

just something for you people to think about as you read this, and something that i must think on as i retire for the night. it's always about choices, this life; and these choices cannot be undone once decided. life is too short for us to have errors, so when you choose, choose well, as i haven't.

that day will come sooner or later. choose wisely.

~DD